Random thoughts thread

i screamed when they showed beyond good and evil 2 not gonna lie i lowkey woke someone up

Tried out Pixiv again today. I forgot how overwhelming the volume of stuff on there is.

Kitsune wrote

I literally cant find anything fun to do.

get overmeme

Melancholy wrote
Kitsune wrote

I literally cant find anything fun to do.

get overmeme

I have it already.
I don't have anyone to play with tho lmao.

I absolutely love when it can be nine in the evening with the sky still bright enough to illuminate clouds against a pale blue backdrop. Probably one of my favorite things about the summer.

i bought a ps4 the other day and it was one of the best decisions of my life. bloodborne is great. not sure which other game i want to get for it though because i don't want it to be a bloodborne machine. maybe ffxv or gravity rush.

I feel so bitter right now. Like having that feeling that i don't belong to anything. Not even my family.

A "friend" of mine invited me over a skype session with all my former friends and stuff. I noticed that my parents, my ex-gf and a lot of people that i used to work with were there too.
You see, back in the day i used to help and get involved in a lot of cons in my hometown, i even mananged several of them from 2012 to 2016 when i left for Japan, and i had several music projects (a band, a duo with another singer and some stuff). I told almost no one besides my family, closed accounts on forums and left my facebook page abandonded for a while.
I had a huge quarrel with my ex-gf over the week, she came to ask me where i was and what was i doing. I told her "I moved to Japan, and i'm not coming back in a long time".
News spreaded out like wildfire and soon i had like 15 people on my ass, telling me stuff.
Back in the group, my parents were agreeing that i needed an intervention and this whole thing escalated into a massive volley of people in my ass.
My ex-gf started "dating" (boning) my former best friend, and telling me how pathetic i was for clinging to a hopeless dream. My parents took it on me for kicking lawschool to become a music producer, my "friends" came after me saying that i was wasting my time in a nowhere land and stuff when i could be making "big" money from making cons. Eventually i just lost it, plugged in my mic and started venting on everyone. Blocked everyone from my sns as a result and spent all day crying in my bed.
I feel like i have no home right now. Like i'm lost in a huge sea of people, with no place to rest. I clearly know that i'm pretty much fucked and by 2019 i'll be homeless.
I know a few people here, but i wouldn't call them friends yet. I feel like a fucking outsider to the world. I don't want to get to my hometown, Tokyo is such a nice place filled with culture, people, debates, music, food and stuff that rarely happens in my hometown. It's like a whole new world.
I'm planning to sever all my ties with Chile. I'll try to find a stable job after i finish here in Kunitachi and settle here. But otherwise it fucking sucks to know that you don't have a family, that your former friends only used you to achieve useless shit and poor cash.
I don't know how to legally change your name here, i just want to dissapear and start over again here.

"searching for a place that im not sure exists"

Is that hauntology? Am I haunted by spectres?

Backlash wrote

I can't be the only one who doesn't mind Shädbase's art... right?

Eh, aka Shadman, right? I don't really mind his art but I don't care for it either. He's got a unique enough artstyle that I have been able to name him as the artist solely from the thumbnail but something about his style also just rubs me the wrong way. I think it's the faces. The bodies look fine. And speaking of bodies it seems like much of his stuff is centered around lolis which is just not my thing. That said I did quite like his rendition of iDubbbz meeting Tana Mongeau.

Just started mapmaking for my old favorite FPS game UT2004, bringing Japan to life as best I can this summer.

LucianDreamer wrote

Just started mapmaking for my old favorite FPS game UT2004, bringing Japan to life as best I can this summer.

Ooh, UT! Never got to play it myself; always was more of a Halo kid; but I hear that kinda frantic, fast-paced arena shooter's making a triumphant comeback as of late. By my mark, that's a really good thing. :3

If you've got a min, you should totes check out this guy's overview of LawBreakers and the new Quake. The former looks incredibly fun, and the $30 price tag certainly doesn't hurt.

Lokorfi wrote

Seriously considering whether or not I want this mechanical keyboard enough

Which keyboard is it?

Lokorfi wrote
malmon wrote
Lokorfi wrote

Seriously considering whether or not I want this mechanical keyboard enough

Which keyboard is it?

k70 lux rgb

Niice. Bare in mind that Corsair uses a non-standard bottom row though, so if you ever happen to want to replace your keycaps, you might be a little limited.

It's not like I want to have cake with you all on this fine day. blushes

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