Depression corner

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tfw failing school
 >tfw don't do nothing about
 >tfw waste my time on stupid stuff
 >tfw realise my future is shit
 >tfw don't feel like I deserve what I have
 
 :c

I know that feel all too well, but I'm an unhealthy optimist so it never really affected me too much aside from being a constant source of fuel for anxiety.

Damn it, is everyone here fucking depressed or something? Well, if anyone needs an outlet feel free to message me, I'd be glad to help out as best as I can. Cheer up guys <3

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Yeah, I'm not really optimistic.. at all.

Also, been depressed for, about 3 years. It isn't as bad as it was, but it sunk pretty deep a few times.

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23123

Yeah, I'm not really optimistic.. at all.

Also, been depressed for, about 3 years. It isn't as bad as it was, but it sunk
pretty deep a few times.

It's a double-edged sword for me, I often think "it'll sort itself out" although it usually doesn't, just leaving me in a bigger mess.

I've noticed that most of my issues - especially when it comes to school, arise from my lack of dicipline. I wish I could give you some advice, but I have no idea how to do well in school except simply getting shit done without thinking about how fucking tedious it is, which I'm completely inept at. Give the Pomodoro Method a go, it has helped me a little when I've not been to lazy to neglect it.

Im going to get really irritated real quick, so im not going to bother typing TFW for everything.
>TFW

completely alone
stuck being a shitty transgender, cant help but feel sad when i think about, mention, or see the lucky members of the opposite sex
feel like shit daily
dont really want to tell anyone but i end up doing it anyway cause it fucking hurts
get misunderstood and stigmatised for it after
have to completely separate my two personas
cant switch back on whim
stuck being a complete monster of a human being
6'1
black
live in 3rd world shithole
no cute or redeeming features
people think im cute and i have to explain to them that im not
cry for hours because of it
99.9% likely to die as a vagrant or in a ditch somewhere because no academic skills
will forever be stuck like this
wont give birth
no kids
my lineage dies with me
can almost never carry on conversation for more than 5 minutes
thoughts are like a beehive, constantly end up trailing off of what im supposed to be doing and doing something else
only person irl i used to reciprocate feelings with completely shuns me, never says a word to me unless i start the conversation
no one will really love me, for logical reasons
this actually affects me
have too many problems, not willing to seek help
my problems most likely dont mean shit, i should just drop the shit and move on being a boy
the idea of that makes me dig my wrists with my nails
needy as fuck
all my past relationships ended because i was simply 'too unstable' or 'unfitted for them'
got dumped completely out of the blue, expected to just act normally the next day
ex who i still love flirts with others right in front of my face
cant say anything about it since it doesnt concern me
cant do anything but cry
cant cry anymore
can only suffer

not too pussy to end it, but god is cruel and has """saved"" my life on more than one occasion
cant kill self even if i try
try not to let it, ends up getting worse

Just for extra measure.

>have not and will never be tenderly hugged by someone outside my family without bad intentions
>will never be petted slowly on the head

Rii wrote

>will never be petted slowly on the head

pets @Rii on the head

Usuka wrote
Rii wrote

>will never be petted slowly on the head

pets @Rii on the head

Awwh. <3

>tfw no significant other for 20 years and still counting
>tfw no member of opposite sex will look at you
>tfw nose twisted so bad my face is a joke
>tfw no sense of smell
>tfw getting fatter by the day
>tfw living my life as a constant time killer withering away
>tfw greatest feeling of joy I have is when talking to people over the internet
>tfw seriously considering said people as family
>tfw best enjoyment is when writing reviews
>tfw nobody reads said reviews
>tfw greatest accomplishment yet is making a fap material for random people on the internet
>tfw spending at least one hour a day hitting the refresh button on lewd index page hoping for a notification
>tfw spent more time watching anime than trying to socialize
>tfw IRL friend committed suicide a fair bit ago and I can't bring myself to shed a single tear to this day
>tfw mentality of a kid, making problems out of insignificant things that shouldn't be a source of depression
>tfw own mother called me worthless on impulse
>tfw all of the above is pathetic

Kiss of Death wrote

>tfw spending at least one hour a day hitting the refresh button on lewd index page hoping for a notification

here u go

I think it's time I make a post of my own. There was a bunch of shit here but now there is not.

>feel like it's not a matter of if I'll off myself, but a matter of when.

>tfw you havem't had friends since middle school
>tfw dropped out of high school (but for a good reason)
>tfw in a very deep shell with people IRL
>tfw mom is crazy
>tfw drink to forget the pain
>tfw sometimes don't have money to forget pain
>tfw every day goes slower and slower
>tfw you want to love someone but no one there and hasn't been for around 7 years
>tfw sick and tired of being sick and tired

8 days later
Nanashi wrote

>tfw no significant other for 20 years and still counting
>tfw no member of opposite sex will look at you
>tfw nose twisted so bad my face is a joke
>tfw no sense of smell
>tfw getting fatter by the day
>tfw living my life as a constant time killer withering away
>tfw greatest feeling of joy I have is when talking to people over the internet
>tfw seriously considering said people as family
>tfw best enjoyment is when writing reviews
tfw nobody reads said reviews
tfw greatest accomplishment yet is making a fap material for random people on the internet
>tfw spending at least one hour a day hitting the refresh button on lewd index page hoping for a notification
>tfw spent more time watching anime than trying to socialize
>tfw IRL friend committed suicide a fair bit ago and I can't bring myself to shed a single tear to this day
tfw mentality of a kid, making problems out of insignificant things that shouldn't be a source of depression
tfw own mother called me worthless on impulse
>tfw all of the above is pathetic

Struck out the things that don't apply to me, it's saddening how much does.

hugs @Nanashi

10 days later
Lokorfi wrote

fuck everything i do
i interfere with people way too much
why am i such a nosy bitch

hugs

We'll always be here for you, sweetheart.

Ok this is going to be a long ass rant:
Basically this guy confessed his undying love for me, long story short i rejected him
and ever since without me asking, without even mentioning anything he's been wasting his money
on me, calling me, messaging me, spamming me SO FUCKING MUCH. I CAN'T FUCKING TAKE HIM ANYMORE.
When i try to ignore him he just fucking balls at me "YOU'RE NEVER NICE TO ME WAAAHHH, WHY CAN'T YOU JUST
BE NICE FOR ONCE, WHY, WHY!? MIMI I ONLY WANT THE BEST FOR YOU" And when i respond something
like "I'm busy" He gets all fucking pissed like-
"DZHIFSDHIOIOJFSJIOFADIJOFSD YOU FUCKING BITCH, EAT MY FUCKING ANAL, PUSSY, SLOBBIN ON YOUR KNOB, PIECE
OF COW SHIT WHORE"
Like are you fucking kidding me? I can't get ANY silence at this point. ANY. I am about to tear
the intestines from my fucking throat, fucking damnit.
And i mean this guy is on EVERYTHING i have, My Osu, My Skype, My fucking Steam and when i play
something HE ALWAYS FUCKING JOINS AND I CANNOT TAKE IT ANYMORE, TEARING THE HAIR FROM MY HEAD.

And i know this may sound kind of unreasonable but just take my word for it, ive got two side laners that literally
are killing themselves with me. This guy doesn't even know me in real life. I don't need this bs.

Example A: 
Example B: 

27338
Perhaps you should block them on everything they use to pester you.

27369
Ive tried that already ;C
Edit: FUCK, NOW HE'S HERE
Im so fucking done i dont even care if he discovers this thread and reads it now.

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27373
Jesus Christ, stop talking to each other, internet "relationships" never work out anyways

I don't mean to be rude, but you can you not do this here.
This is clearly not something that should be written for everyone else to see, it's between you two.

27686

I don't even care for one I just want to be friends -_-

On a serious note, I think that ship has has sailed sadly. Relationships come and go, all you really can do is learn from your previous ones.