Depression corner

Yeah sure, I'll bite.

>tfw past decisions still haunt you to this very day
>tfw ex girlfriend won't ever understand you again
>tfw trap exboyfriend will never forgive you or talk to you ever again
>tfw fucking up hardcore in college and you're on your last legs
>tfw the thought of absolute loneliness still haunts you late at night
>tfw most of my friends that I've had around 2012-2013 are either gone or left with another group of friends
>tfw no one will ever find you attractive enough to date again
>tfw you're not even safe in your dreams anymore
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It's okay I'm sure things will start looking up for the both of you! ;~;

You know that depression isn't something that's "cool". It doesn't make you different. Depression is treatable, you can get over this point in your life. It's not permanent. I got counseling, it works. It works miracles.

losi wrote

You know that depression isn't something that's "cool". It doesn't make you different. Depression is treatable, you can get over this point in your life. It's not permanent. I got counseling, it works. It works miracles.

Who's trying to look cool or stand out from their depression? Y'know that counselling doesn't always work for some people either, right? 

There's definitely always a bright side in the future, but I'm pretty sure this is a thread to just share woes both new and old. 

Unless this post was bait

LameSheep wrote

losi wrote

You know that depression isn't something that's "cool". It doesn't make you different. Depression is treatable, you can get over this point in your life. It's not permanent. I got counseling, it works. It works miracles.

Who's trying to look cool or stand out from their depression? Y'know that counselling doesn't always work for some people either, right? 

There's definitely always a bright side in the future, but I'm pretty sure this is a thread to just share woes both new and old. 

Unless this post was bait

I'm not a piece of shit who baits. I've had my share of problems.

>tfw emotions are not entirely under my control
>tfw my intense happiness means depression is just around the corner
>tfw my stints of depression are caused by imbalanced chemicals in my brain rather than sadness because my puppy died
>tfw i want my boss to die of a heart attack
>tfw i realize my depression is out of my control without medication

Clinical depression is not the same as other types of depression. I'm fairly well off and happy in my life, I just have times I can't motivate myself to even stand the fuck up, and its all because of a chemical imbalance.

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tfw no vagina
tfw you always feel fat
tfw you hide your 8am, 3pm, 10pm crying sessions
tfw creepy stepdad getting released from jail

>tfw dropped out of high school
>tfw working in fast food
>tfw family won't talk to me anymore
>tfw haven't made / had any friends since sophmore year.
>tfw too poor for meds.
>tfw too pussy to end it.

>grew up with a mother who was abused as a child & teenager
>said grandma tainted 1st child of mother named Corrine
>Corrine was beautiful but Jebbika's dad wasn't her dad
>Evil Woman (grandma) told Corrine just before she did her exams a year early that Jebbika's dad wasn't her real dad
>Mothers side of the family tainted Corrine even more, calling evil of Jebbika's dad.
>Jebbika begins to practice acting different expressions and voices
>Jebbika is now 8 - 9 ish when boom! Corrine runs away.
>Guess where she goes? Evil Womans house.
>Accusations of child abuse from Evil Woman was pointed on my dad
>broke... no money.
>The case was dropped.
>Jebbika was sad
>Was bullied all of primary school
>Had regular fights
>The one person Jebbika had and loved as a brother left her in the dirt after going out for a few weeks. (Now aged 10 - 11)
>Was with that boy ever since was young
>After going to secondary school (high school) never spoke again
>Got bullied even more
>found out had anxiety (age 12)
>got arrhythmia (late 12) 
>found at had arrhythmia (mid-13)
>couldn't even do the most simplest of tasks
>couldn't run, the one thing she did she most. She used to be one of the boys. She used to run and play. She used to go everywhere.
>dizziness
>vomiting
>breathlessness
>managed to tell parents this (late-13)
>with some rehab over-came arrhythmia
>figured out how crappy the world is
>hates the idea of growing up
>even when happy was always bored
>bored
>bored
>bored
>realization that she wants to be a boy (early 14s)

>has decided that she wants to keep her original gender but wants to live as a boy (mid-14s)
>expectations of her grades even higher than before
>exams next year
>wont be able to do it
>lost herself in the emotions she practiced acting
>only feels like her normal self on the internet
>in real life she's constantly thinking about what expression to make and how to act depending on the day
>doubts of her aspirations
>nobody loved music as much as her
>music is painful
and here we are.
>windows were smashed through by neighbors
>paint saying "rude" and/or "pedo" written in white paint on the door
>threats
>cameras pointing into our house
>egged windows (lol)
>spends £250 on security cameras
>£100 ish left in bank
>mortgage due
>parents doing all-nighters to protect Jebbika
>next door knows my parents surnames and things they shouldnt know
>high suspicion of them bugging us, they know when we sleep and play music loudly even when we leave the lights on
>they can hear us (the bugs)
>tired of everything
>bored

Home? Home.

I was depressed.

Turned suicidal.

Went to BMT.

Came back.

Am happy little shit.

10/10 lyfe

[x] I suppose I'll take it a lil' seriously;

>TFW You move so much you lose all your friends.
>TFW You don't see the point in forming friends anymore.
>TFW You're alone for several years.
>TFW You almost failed middle school.
>TFW You tanked highschool.
>TFW You tanked college.
>TFW You tanked the only thing you could ever call your passion.
>TFW Your only two friends throw you under the bus.
>TFW You fail military entry.
>TFW You're all alone.
>TFW When you say "I want to go home" you realize you have no home.
>TFW The only thing keeping your engine running is being a Bleeding Heart.

ok i guess i'll participate

>no friends irl
>i haven't had any idea why no one likes talking to me for over 3 years. I just can't figure it out
>people invite me to things, offer me drugs, not because i'm their friend, but probably because i look cool or something
>they never actually want to be my friend
>i don't know
>idk anything
>turn to fashion to escape
>it's the only thing keeping me from going insane... probably
>idk what i would be thinking of if i wasn't always thinking about clothes

I wouldn't say i'm depressed. I haven't seen a doctor or anything to diagnose me, so i could not just say I am. A lot of people do that without being diagnosed for attention. 

but yeah. idk

: P

oh yeah also idk why i even go on this site when i can't stand weaboos even though i've seen more than most

swag money  $ $ $ $

I've been a neet for 7 years and it just hit me a few weeks ago how fucked I am. Now I just feel empty more than anything.

21525
Basically my life right there.

22338
Relevant username?

Ever since I found out I have this stupid illness of mine, my life has never been the same. It's very easy to trigger, and if I ever go to bed stressed, it fires off automatically anyway. Symptoms include panic attacks, acute brain fog, inability to hold a conversation, painful inflammation (like your brain is on fire); and last about one to two weeks. It'd happened before, whence I'd thought it was normal for everyone, but realizing I had an incurable disease marked the start of an awful depression that lasted just under seven months.

See, the thing about depression is that there isn't any easy way out. In my case, I found a forum of people who suffer from the same illness, and I tried all sorts of different temporary remedies to no avail. (I should note, while there is research going on, there is no treatment for what I've got.) I shunned antidepressants as they'd only provide temporary relief, and because I was already addicted to sleep meds. Eventually though, after many miserable weeks, I figured out that it only triggered in my sleep if I went to bed really stressed or it got really hot. It's inconvenient at times, but after therapy and tailoring my sleep schedule around it I've finally gotten a chance to be my normal self.

I think that's the major factor in overcoming depression: The feeling of regaining control. It doesn't come easy - I was in group therapy for months - but once you realize how much you have to live for, how beautiful the world can be, and just how much your friends really care about you (a lot), you've taken the first step towards healing.

Link related. It's a glass sculpture my mom picked up for me when I was feeling down. Bears are kind of a mutual obsession between us, so it really meant something.

Having meaningful conversations with people also really helps. You have my gratitude for that.

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Im going to drop a wall of text here in the next 12 hours.
[;w;]

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Even a qt like Rii is affected by it :<
If you even want to talk about it I'll always be here for you

>tfw life dysphoria
>tfw I always feel fat
>tfw stopped eating
>tfw only have friends online
>tfw most of them also left me
>tfw exgf is horrible and spreads rumors
>tfw past haunts me
>tfw I see the reason that it haunts me everyday

>mfw to pussy to end it

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>tfw failing school
>tfw don't do nothing about
>tfw waste my time on stupid stuff
>tfw realise my future is shit
>tfw don't feel like I deserve what I have

:c