What would be your ideal regular day?

>Wake up
>Take a shower
>Make my breakfast
>Go to university by myself
>Take a not so empty bus and listen to music while I think about my existence and what a I'm going to learn to today
>Arrive to class and talk about something interesting with my classmates before the class starts
>Attend class without falling asleep
>Learn something in math class
>Receive a text from someone special to go out after classes
>After classes, go to see that special person
>Eat something and talk
>Take a bus and go to home with her
>Tell her that I love her and she accepts
>Fall asleep in her boobs
>Arrive home at 9 PM or 7PM and play some games and win atleast
>Sleep early... Like midnight or 1AM
>Wake up again... At 4:30 AM....

Hanging out with that special person will make every day my ideal day, not matter what happens before or after I hang out with her, it will make me really happy and having a reason to wake up and study everyday

>most of the days
>Wake up 4:30
>Go to university without having a breakfast
>Try to learn something in class cuz i always feel sleepy and my eyes hurt
>go home and try to not fall sleep in the bus cuz my country is dangerous
>arrive home play vidya and lose (feel stressed)
>sleep like 3 AM sometimes no sleep
>cant even relax in weekends

The reality:

Wake up around 9:00
Spend about an hour or so warming up my engines
Do some homework for my online classes, study a bit
Do a few favors for my mom
Nervous disorder makes it hard to think or talk too well
Constantly get reminded that I should be calling my grandpa who has Alzheimer's
Literally feel like I have Alzheimer's myself sometimes
Buy a Little Caesar's five-dollar pizza to have as lunch for the next couple days
Finally get to sit down and relax around 1 o'clock or so; decide to play some Overwatch
Try talking to friends; can't think of anything to say
Try to post on here; can't think of anything to write
Decide to read some comics and watch a little anime
Dinnertime
Get pinged by a friend; still can't think too well so I ignore it
Spend the rest of the day watching cozy Let's Plays and browsing teh interwebz
Pass out at a surprisingly-reasonable hour (midnight or so)

The ideal:

> Wake up early enough to see the morning sun shining through my window
> Feelin' pretty good about myself
> Feelin' even better after I down a cup of diet soda/coffee
> Nervous disorder decided to fuck off for a day
> Quickly write up something for one of my online classes
> Get that one thing my mom said she needed from the dollar store
> It's not even nine o'clock yet
> Watch anime, read manga, and write smutty roleplays till about noon or so
> Welcome my mom home; she works, so she's not there to bother me all morning
> Test my wits against some randos on Overwatch
> Chat with some friends
> Chat with most of my friends, actually
> Spend some time running more errands and chatting up random strangers for good measure
> Hop on NationStates or Lewd and fire off a few witty quips
> Hang around Lewd's Discord while doing some more homework
> It's dark by now
> Finally eat something around 9 or 10 at night
> Decide to crack open a good book
> Log new expressions and turns of phrase in my phone's notepad app, all whilst laughing my ass off
> Go to bed around 1 or 2 AM

All things considered, I'd be super-happy if I could just think and talk and write like I used to. Usually I can manage it, but for some reason it's been really bad as of late. I miss shitposting with you guys. ;-;