Porn addiction

Shhh That's kinda what I used to think as well. I dunno, maybe I'm just getting old, but lately I've just been looking back and wondering if satisfying my urges for all these years, while I still had a decent chance of finding someone IRL, was probably a bad idea.

I never thought I'd be the sort of person who would want to get married, have kids, etc... yet here I am >_<'

malmon I don't think it's healthy to dwell on the past too much, it will just eat you alive if you just focus on what you could have done instead of what you can do more.

Also, I know that even if I wasn't addicted to porn I still wouldn't be out meeting new people xD

Shhh That's the point though, I've made the stuff that I can still do so much more difficult for myself. Instead of spending those years actually developing, learning how to talk to girls etc., I just wanked them away.

How on Earth does porn addiction even get you out meeting people though?

Shhh Oh, sorry, I misread your last sentence ^_^'

And yeah... I know it's not impossible. But my biological clock's ticking regardless v_v Kinda funny how Spy x Family of all things is making me feel like this~

malmon That show is doing the same to me... I'm convinced it's just propaganda at this point!

My dad wants me to have children but I know it isn't ever going to happen. There's a lot of reasons, and honestly porn is probably the lowest on the list.
I wish socializing was easier ;-;

Shhh I welcome this kinda propaganda :P

I wouldn't rule yourself out yet ^_^ Socialising... well yeah, as you say, it's different for everyone. I personally don't find socialising that difficult - I'm not usually very talkative, but as long as someone else is, I do alright. I'm just utterly hopeless at going any further than that >_<'

malmon I honestly don't know, I get flustered and embarrassed so easily. Even when I was practically given intimacy I kinda messed it up and got ghosted immediately >.> Long distance is a lot more manageable for me, honestly.

Shhh Unfortunately, long distance comes with a major lack of intimacy. I wouldn't give up the time I've spent in long distance relationships, but at the end of the day, they tend to be rather cold, for me at least.

malmon intimacy scares me honestly, but I can understand that. It definitely isn't for everyone. On another note, this topic is really making me realize how much of a mess I am overall, regardless of porn addiction ^~^'

Shhh intimacy scares me honestly

Yet you regularly watch it on a screen~ I guess that's another reason I'm getting sick of it...

Shhh See, porn has ruined your sense of what sex is supposed to be about!

malmon Maybe a little bit... I am probably beyond saving though ^~^

Shhh You're not beyond saving! But it does require a bit of a mindset shift... I guess like with any addiction, it's not gonna go anywhere unless you really want it to.

malmon I guess that is something I am going to have to work on soon, before it gets out of hand >.>

Shhh Nono, the idea is to get it out of hand ;D

malmon Maybe my hand has a mind of it's own :p

Shhh Get yourself one of these ;D

malmon Crucify me on the Anti-Masturbation Cross and I'll make Houdini look like a bitch